Written by Journalist, Psychic, and Explorer Nicholas R. Grossmann
Photo Nichols R. Grossmann
I’ve always been fascinated by death. Maybe because of my supernatural capabilities and connection to the otherside. It’s not an easy road growing up with this gift that used to be thought of as a curse. “Shamanic Illness, anyone?” Shamanic illness is when as a child or an adolescent, a holy person would get harassed and tormented by spirits until he or she accepted the calling of a Holy person. Once they have accepted it, the insanity stops and you can begin your psychic path. Well in my story a gang of spirits really roughed me up pretty bad. As soon as I gave in and accepted my calling they stopped and I was now in control, to an extent of these spirits. Almost as if I have become not a leader per say but a key holder to different pathways. I’m trusted. I’ve been obsessed with the afterlife and you know what’s so funny? Everyone is so obsessed with what’s on the other side that when you cross over it’s kind of silly only because we get sent here with our memory wiped clean. We have other identities up there and are very supernatural beings. It’s essential that we have to revisit planet Earth so we can feel. Up in the heavens it’s too perfect to feel. Of course we are talking about negative types of feelings because it’s perfect up there or should I say next door? Because we can’t feel pain, sadness, anger, or fear on the other side we get sent down in these biological engineered organic robot types of bodies which by the way are not ours to own but to borrow. We get sent here to feel those emotions because if we don’t our soul will not evolve.
Speaking of Shamnic, this was an ouija board I’ve painted with a witch doctor or bush doctor which is in the same relation to shamanism. Haha yup ok! Get it out of your system! The hippy beard and longer hair.
I tried!
Lately, I have been studying N.D.E.s aka Near Death Experiences and have noticed this phenomenon seems on the rise.We as the Human race and earthlings in general are going through an evolutionary shift. The North pole has drastically shifted, the planet is getting much warmer, and all sorts of chaos is present. The truth is we have been going through this for a couple decades but I have news for you! Myself and other Swamis or Shamans or Holy people must agree that the chaos is coming to an end. We as people went from third to fourth or even fifth dimension according to gurus alike.
Sometimes I wonder if we are seeing a rise in N.D.E.s because they are telling us to relax and that we are evolving and we have reached a stage in this reality where we are allowed to gain that knowledge. Unlike people before who just weren’t ready.
Most people who experience these don’t want to go back. They often report of pure darkness but as scary as this sounds it’s said to be very peaceful, followed by a euphoria that is beyond and defies human perception. I remember when I died for 15 minutes or so, long story short, I met God. God congratulated me and told me I learned my life lessons…. Then he said But…. you have to go back because you have bills that still need to be paid! Hahaha! I never died but I know a lot of people who did actually die and come back with wisdom and knowledge other than debt.
Who are the dead ones? Them or us? Think about it… They are vibing so much higher than we are here. Life isn’t actually here, it’s over there. This is not life but a matrix like some sort of metaphysical hologram. The interesting thing is I have a friend from Turkey who practices Islam. I accept everyone’s religion or spirituality, whatever you believe in is all good for me! He had something very intelligent to say and this is going to sound a little weird but let me see if I can wake you up a bit. A newborn is born with every bone intact in their bodies but without teeth. Why don’t they have teeth? Babies don’t have teeth so they can be fed, otherwise they would bite the mother (being serious here). Isn’t that proof that someone up there created us and we as humans were not some plain miracle that accidentally happened? This is proof that we were engineered perfectly for a baby to be capable of feeding (all seriousness).Babies are also born with a soft spot on their crowns. I find that also interesting because in many cultures the crown is a connection from human to God. I’m also fascinated that our jewish friends wear Yamakas for a somewhat related reason ( in a sense). Or myself as a believer in the Holy Trinity although I’m considered a medicine man of sorts. That brings to mind the metaphysical and magical or magical number of 3. The father, The Son, and the Holy Spirit compared in a philosophical sense to husband, wife, and child. God in Christianity comes in male form but the truth is God’s nor female or male. Father+Holy Spirit = Deliverance/ Miracle (son) and Husband + Wife = Child. There’s no accidents there. Also as we are co creators there has to be two establishments which are body and mind to create in this physical realm. It meant that way in perfect devine mathematics. By the way infinity, has an end but us human beings can’t calculate that high of a value, so therefore infinity to us is forever but technically it’s not. We just can’t process that high of Mathematics. Enough though about religion. This is not about religion but N.D.E.s. I just wanted to go into why we are here on Earth and bring up Islam, Christianity and Judisim to explain that we are here not by accident. By the way, another fascination I have is mathematically decoding ancient text and scriptures into theory. All I’m saying is we are not by accident. We are engineered by supreme intelligence.That’s my point! And please don’t mind me, I’m a huge fan of God! He’s a good friend of mine.
Now I’ll get into my journey of bleeding into the afterlife. I say bleeding, not as blood but to best describe meshing into realities like dye bleeding into a white cloth. Basically as a psychic, we have this ability. An ability to hack into multidimensional Madness. As many who know me is i’ve always been clairvoyant and clairknowledge and sometimes I get lucky and get pulled up into the afterlife itself. What I’m saying is different than just plain communication with spirits but instead, I get pulled all the way in their world for a short period of time. My grandmother visits me all the time. I remember she took me to a castle and a bunch of my paintings were displayed and she said “That’s going to be you someday, Nicky”. Yes, you can laugh. I am literally Little Nicky. My family is Italian and they love adding y’s after each name. She has also pulled me into this void like realm and I feel like it was a layer from her reality that separates mine in the psychical realm. It was very bland but my grandma had my dog with her. Long story short that dog was important to me and it ran away and got lost and never came home. I have been heartbroken from 14 years of age until a few years ago, I asked Grandma if she could bring Gizmo to me. That night I had an astral projection with my grandma meeting me with my dog, Gizmo. Remember before we spoke about Shamanic Illness? Well it was pretty traumatizing and I got really attached to that dog. Another time my best friend Louie, who had passed away, took me up to heaven and we were on a beach with a crystal clear lake. It was super quiet and peaceful. So peaceful that it would be impossible to achieve that state of awareness here. There were also no waves in the water and it was as still as glass. He said to me “Nick, you don’t have to worry anymore. It’s amazing up here. There’s no rocks or shells in the sand. The sand is so smooth. Rewind a few seconds.” I mentioned astral travel which is similar to N.D.E.s only that you’re alive while doing it.
An interesting thing is I have a very spiritual purpose and job on Earth. I believe God gave me abilities to help people through this time of growth. The truth is though, everyone has these abilities! Some are born natural at baseball and others karate but I was born a psychic. I do often get this reality in some type of dome in the middle of the Atlantic ocean and I’m talking way out there that I go into this structure and I’m in a classroom with a desk and there’s these monks who are drilling knowledge into my head.
As a shaman, I often go to the underworld. It’s not a pretty place. It’s actually very lame and you don’t want to end up there. If you think life is hard here and if you wind up in the underworld as many call it, they are going to put you to work! It’s not hell but it’s like Earth but much tougher, believe it or not. It’s endless buildings and it reminds me of the computer game Quake. I used to love playing that. I have been attacked by creatures there. One got me pretty bad. Imagine a world of empty warehouses with no street art, just plain walls. Imagine a world that’s non stop.Non stop industrial buildings, always a darker hue, and of course the smell of plywood and that’s how I would describe the underworld. Why do some people end up there? Beats me! But there’s a description (at least from my journeys which is unintentional. The underworld is pretty boring and a message to you, urban explorers….You’ll hate the place. Don’t go!
Imagine an eternity of this and bland.
So I have had similar experiences but if you ask me when I hear people’s stories about how they actually did die and were dead for 10 min to an hour and came back with a story it blows it away. People are experiencing these more and more because we have matured as humans and they now can tell us to relax and not take this world seriously and everything you have learned you have backwards. Funny thing is I’m actually dyslexic and I always knew about this afterlife knowledge so your backwards is my forward.
I’ve also met some very interesting friends on this paranormal journey and I found a guy who is willing to share about his N.D.E. experience, so I hit the record button and we had some interesting interviews. Check it out. Opppps hold on…. I have to get us to the right frequency and out of this realm of bland. 1 sec…. BeetleJuice, BeetleJuice, BeetleJuice! And poof here’s an interview with my friend, A.J. Copasso. A.J. has a remarkable story about what he experienced on the other side! Enjoy.
Photo of A.J. Copasso
Interview with paranormal investigator and friend A.J. Copasso
Myself: “So AJ, why don’t you describe to me, well… say whatever you want about your experience, just wing it, freestyle it, whatever you would like.”
AJ: “Hi, I’ll give you kind of the short version of it, because it’s kind of long. So basically what ended up happening was I was addicted to opiates for a very long time, every single day. That’s all I would do. I had a very serious addiction. And I ended up dying 12 times. The last time that I died, I ended up leaving my body and being full. How do I say this? Fully aware of everything that was going on. It was like I was standing over my body and more like floating over my body and in an upright position and I literally was able to be in any part of the room I wanted to be in at any moment simultaneously all at once. So I would be over the shoulder of a paramedic on the left. I’d be over the one on the right. I’d be able to hear their thoughts, I’d be able to listen to their conversations all at once, simultaneously, just understanding everything. And it was just absolutely amazing, the feeling, because it felt like I was more alive than I am now in this reality. Well, next, I got sucked up into this tunnel and it’s like what I would describe as hyperspace and the hyperspace in there I had a life review and in the life review it wasn’t just a life review of my life it was a life review of the life from beginning of time to all the way to the end of my life and I saw flash images just fly up like pictures in front of my eyes and they were rapidly doing it very quickly, whereas if we were a human, we wouldn’t be able to understand what I was seeing. But because I was in this different form, I was able to understand everything simultaneously as it came up, understanding every picture. I’m able to dwell on the picture as I’m looking at other pictures.
Myself: “How did it make you feel going back in with the life review? Like how did you feel guilt? Did you feel happiness?”
AJ: “ Well, that’s what I was going to get into. It wasn’t a life review about me doing bad stuff. It was me doing bad stuff, but I was in the body of another person that I was actually treating badly and I was able to feel their pain and feel what I was causing. It was me judging myself. It wasn’t a God judging me. It wasn’t anyone else judging me. It was me judging me for how I treated others through their eyes. And that’s the pain that I believe that a lot of spirits obviously have. And that’s why after that I ended up going straight through to a place that opened up into a beautiful magical place that I would call heaven and it was absolutely gorgeous. It had beautiful colors. It had all types of just amazing colors. I can’t even describe it. It’s so vibrant, colors that we don’t even have here on Earth. And then I was approached by a light being. I couldn’t look into this being. It was so bright. And I had to look forward, away from it. And I heard telepathically say, It’s not your time, what are you doing here? And then sent me back and the minute that it sent me back, before I had a chance to say a word, I was sucked back down the tunnel, and that’s when the paramedics hit me with the paddles, and I woke up, and I just sat up screaming, ‘Where am I? Where am I?’ Because the place felt so real, it felt more real than this reality.”
A heavenly photo.
Myself: “ Did you feel euphoria in the afterlife? Or the other side?”
AJ: “They say that all of them. More than a mother can give a child.
Myself : “When that happens to me, that tunnel, I’m going to be like, let’s get this over with. Seriously, let’s get this tunnel experience over with because I don’t really want to go there and remember stuff. Good God Haha! I’m glad I’ve changed now, but… Good God! Oh my God, that’s going… That’s not going to be fun for me, man! I’m going to tell the spirit ‘let’s get this over with a.s.a.p.!!’ Haha!”
AJ: “No. No, let me tell you. I actually got in contact with people that I saw in my life review and actually apologized to them. Really! And they said, ‘Why are you apologizing to me?’ And I told them the story and they said, ‘Oh my God. Well, thank you so much.’ ”
Myself: “Ha! That’s awesome!”
AJ: “I remember there was this girl. It was fifth grade. She was a very big girl and all my friends were sports athletes. I was in the jock group in fifth grade and all of a sudden she wrote me a note and I remember the image, it just came up so quickly and I remember just the pink clay out in front of my eyes and it was this girl. She went to hand me a note and the note dropped and the teacher saw the note, picked it up and read it in front of the whole class about how much she loved me and she wanted to go out with me and all that stuff. And she was completely embarrassed, this girl, and instead of me understanding how embarrassed she was, I went and I humiliated her in front of the entire class. I was mean and I just remember that. And I ended up being friends with her after I told her about my N.D.E. and I apologized. I told her I was able to feel your pain and embarrassment on my life review. She’s now my friend and has helped me very much with stuff that was going on in my life.”
Myself: “That’s cool. You know, it’s like We’re all connected somehow and That’s very fascinating. That’s actually a very rewarding story that you just said right there but again I’m going to say, ‘Can we just hit the fast forward button so this is a little faster for my life review when the time comes? Haha! Tell me about when you remember you were talking about the cocooning, I thought it was the most interesting thing and very hopeful. Suicide victims, cancer victims, people who’ve died tragic, and because of that they die with a lower frequency. You said that there was like some type of thing they called the cocoon phenomenon where they would wrap them up in a blanket.
AJ: “For people who had long illnesses, suicide or people that have cancer or stuff like that. Basically, an angel comes down and the angel that brings me, I didn’t get to see it, I knew there was a being next to me, but an angel that comes down with you when you leave your body will actually take you immediately to this cocooning process and the cocooning process basically is like the same wrap of love that I got wrapped in and it’s like it basically is like a therapy for spirits where they go and their vibration gets raised back to its normal level because when we’re outside of our body for so long and people like spirits that have been outside, they turned away, and they got stuck and they were without the light for so many days, then their vibration is lower. Same thing with people with illnesses, like their vibration has been low for a long time due to the illness and they get brought to a cocooning process. Same thing with people with depression and or suicide, they get brought up to this cocooning process where their vibration gets raised and they get healed.
I feel like our life path, we take on a little bit more than we should, and then we get overwhelmed, and then that’s the reason why we kind of give up and go into this, you know, depression and some people end it. That’s when the blanket of God’s love comes to play.
Myself :“ I understand. How did you find out about the cocooning? Did the spirit tell you?”
AJ: “A spirit box session and then verified by a medium. So a medium that had no idea that I did the process through a spirit box.”
Myself: “Are there any other descriptions you want to get into about the other side? Anything else you could remember? This is a great story. It really is. Your story is great, comforting, and inspiring!”
AJ: “I’m not a God that sits here and judges us. It’s that we judge ourselves in the manner through other people’s eyes, and that we are all connected, that we are loved, and that we need to show love to everybody.”
Myself: “ We’re meant to go through those life lessons and that trauma that we go through. We’re meant for it and at times that’s part of why we are here. Do you believe in free will, or do you believe in God’s will? Both, basically, right? Or just free will?”
AJ: “ Yeah, basically in a way, yes. Yes, okay, I was just curious about that. Okay, cool, man. Let me see if there’s anything else I can think of. “
Myself: ” Dude, that cocooning thing!!? I’ve listened to so many near-death experiences. Yeah, that’s so interesting that you say that about cocooning. Because you’re the first person to say that and I’m fascinated by it. I really am. I think that’s wild. Cocooning you to raise you to the frequency. So, you could be compatible yet again with the other side. Anyway, is there anything else you want to add about that? This experience? Do you feel like after you had got more psychic abilities after the experience, could you go in on that a little bit?”
AJ: “When I came back, I started to have these experiences where I was able to feel the energy in a room. If people got into an argument, I’d walk into the room, and all of a sudden, I’d get hit with thick air. It was like I was climbing and walking through a pool, it was like your way through it because it was just like you have to cut it with a knife, you know? You could feel that tension and then all of a sudden, I started feeling things in my house that were different types of entities and I knew that because of their gender and I knew that they were just, I could feel them as if I could feel a human’s energy and I say to myself,’ they’re not there’. But they’re there, and now I understand that I can feel spirits, hear spirits. I would hear their messages. My N.D.E. changed my life.”
Myself: “Very cool. All right! Okay, thank you so much for this interview. This is going to be good. Okay. I’ll hit you up tomorrow. “
AJ: “Thank you so much. All right You got it. Bye. Peace.”
Well there you have it folks! I have heard hundreds of N.D.E.s and this one takes the cake and is one for the books or should we say a new chapter for A.J. and many others. AJs story in particular fascinates me. He really goes into detail about the experience and has a great way of describing it. As for me, I’m a psychic medium or maybe we can say I’m a walking N.D.E.!!! “wink”. Don’t get me wrong! I love being a medium and helping people but these N.D.E.s don’t even come close to doing a reading for someone. Honestly I just relay messages from the other side and I have had the treat to go up there for a very, ultra short period of time and I’m talking a matter of minutes. Maybe it’s because I don’t remember the whole experience. Remember though… A haunting and spirit who have crossed over are two different things. Some day we will all find truth and wisdom out. Personally with my experience being a medium we need to relax. We take this world way too seriously! We need to all learn our life lessons and enjoy our experience, for this world is only a speck of dust (literally in a sense) compared to what awaits us next!
“Safety Coffin” grave stone with bell.